| My daughter (or son) is over it. Why aren't I?
My daughter has moved on after a supremely and surprisingly disappointing round of waitlists and rejections. But I can't seem to do the same. I think it is because this outcome would make up for all the disappointments her unconventional ways have brought throughout the years.
One example to illustrate: When she was the only kid on the block not invited to the birthday party that was held in the yard ajoining ours; we could see and hear all the festivities. I would placate myself with the knowledge that they may exclude her, but folks who matter more will welcome her unique style one day! That sort of thing.
She has been a social outcast since preschool. I wanted it to end with college, and I thought her brains and accomplishments would bring it about. The rejections and waitlists feel like more of the same, I guess.
In a blisteringly painful twist of irony for me, but a blessing for her, she doesn't even see it. She has a very limited ability to judge or understand social circumstances. She is like a mentally challenged person who doesn't know she is being teased, and laughs along. But I know, and it hurts so bad.
As in so many things, she should be my example. She has moved on and is thinking ahead, no longer giving the closed doors any notice.
Anyone else in the same place? |