people frighten me. not just new people. i like to stay away from family, friends, sometimes even bf. i can't tell anymore if i just like to be alone or if i'm scared of everyone. i don't know why i'm scared of people. i'm scared to go to parties, i'm scared to call people to just have lunch or talk. sometimes i'd rather read a book than talk to someone, but other times i get kidna lonely and want to talk to someone, but i don't really have anyone in mind. well, if i'm bored, i'd talk to anyone, but if i'm depressed and want a real convo, i don't feel like i can trust anyone (they'd say the wrong stuff, show signs of apathy, tell other people, or ignore me). because of this, i haven't really made a real friend in college. i really wished i dormed and had a roommate or something. i don't know why i'm always running away from people.
