| I am not sure, but when I was in high school I was known amongst my peers for my academic achievements, and knowing that so many people envied/hated/admired, respected/disrespected, overestimated/underestimated me, felt good. I believe that if you are able to stir so many different passions on so many different people, simply by being yourself, it probably means there is something interesting and unusual about you. Those days are gone, though.
Ok in high school you felt you were interesting because you evoked envy etc. or at least you perceived it that way.
So it sounds like your motivation was external, that is, you did things because of what response it got from others.
Those days are gone as you said.
What are you interested in- regardless of what accolades or awards you would or wouldnt recieve?
What would you do, if you knew you could not fail? |