| I doubt that OP is in his late forties. More likely in his twenties, just a few years out of college. He did say he would retire in 40 years.
Anyhow OP, not caring is NOT good for the soul. For you to feel good about yourself, you need to care about things. Anything. Perform better at work, have some goals, be interested in earning your salary. You will probably be praised, and you will see how good that feels. Perhaps you have never been recognized for the good things you did, and that has caused you to become this way.
Do you have a hobby? Any interests? Do some volunteer work. That's good for the soul. Maybe you will realize how you are letting life and opportunities go by when you meet people who have so little. Join a club, a church, a gym. Go running everyday, that in itself is uplifting and energizing.
You have fallen into a trap of apathy, and you need to pull yourself out. |