i am not saying that i don't like the life i am living...its just a little bit more unpleasant. I guess i am a little bit jealous because now she is in the limelight, versus in the past, I would be the one in that position. its just hard to cope with
and also I made it sound like I hate my sister, which is definitely not the case. she is like the greatest person, and I really do love her, but its everyone else who compare us that completely ruins the relationship. the main thing is, I consider myself to be smart as well, but because of her recent successes it seems that people instantly judge me as not being intelligent at all. if i was in any other family, I feel like I would be the star...
maybe i am just waaaaayyy too dramatic... haha probably. it's just not a fun feeling :-/