| So you'd like to begin to drink, deliberately. Not possible. Drinking is about losing control. It's about ignorance, and stillness, and suicide. It goes against life, period. Do you value every moment of your life? If you don't, if you want to forget, to disengage, to let go? Have a drink. (By the way, a drinker is a parasite, so your screenname is apropos. If you read any AA literature, a drinker tries to get things for free, takes advantage of people. You say you get straight As, but do you know why you do? Have you examined why you like to achieve? Because that's what life's about. It's about creating something meaningful. And alcohol only destroys).
I'm sorry for the preachy post. But when people talk about drinking "according to plan" (or really drinking at all), it gets to me. Why do you want to drink? Where is the purpose? To have "fun"? What does that mean? I love having fun, love appreciating the work of others, laughing with people, etc. But I don't think trying to drown your sorrows in a bottle is the way to do it. It's a drug. Why do you feel like you need drugs to have fun? Do you think cocaine is okay, just the way you think alcohol is? It's a difference of degree, not kind. Am I making any sense at all?
I'm really sorry if I'm attacking you. My dad is an alcoholic, and it's a disease of denial. I just want people to understand that every choice you make has meaning, and choosing to drink is choosing denial, ignorance, loneliness, randomness. I don't know how else to describe it. |