| You are getting some good advice here. Kids, and yes, you are still a kid, sometimes impulsively do foolish things. You acted on an impulse that was fueled by years of hard work to reach a goal., that of a high grade.
Many of us have thoughts of doing things that are wrong, taking shortcuts, cheating, stealing when we so want something. Now you know how easy it is to cross that line when an opportunity presents itself.
My son got into all kinds of trouble in highschool His transgressions were serious. He reported them all on his applications. He was still accepted to his more selective colleges. Only one school contacted the counselor for additional information, and since she was provided a copy of his explanations that the colleges had, she was able to support him. One thing that he wrote that was compelling was how he now understood what motivates some people to do the wrong thing, how easily you can cross the line. Because he is the type of person who does have to curb his impulses, he knows some of the whys and hows. He did not come to these conclusions easily, either. As an alcoholic has to understand that he cannot drink as his peers can, he had to come to the realization that he can't act as spontaneously as many do and as he likes to do, since he does not seem to have the natural aversion and fears of breaking the rules or getting caught. He plain out doesn't think before he acts, something that has gotten him in trouble and will get him into deeper trouble if he does not understand this and work to rein it in. If you have access to counseling, you might want to discuss your own feelings, morals and conflicts so that you get a deeper understanding of them and learn to deal with them. This is something you might want to tell the teacher as well. If you don't want to be that sort of person who cheats and is not trustworthy, you may have to work at it. |