| @rjkofnovi,
I had a tough time in school. Perhaps it was because I was very active involved in ECs but I've seen people who are equally involved and yet do very well academics-wise.
I never fully understood most of my classes. I took a long time assimilating what was taught in class and would occasionally have to schedule appointments with my teachers to clarify the subject material. I also had trouble comprehending notes and textbooks and often had to resort to rewriting the content.
I took a much longer time and effort than my peers to complete homework. As such, I was always lagging behind my classmates and the homework 'debt' would only grow larger as the term progressed. As such, when it came to tests and exams, I would always be struggling to simply complete and review prior material. Needless to say, I did not do well. I was well below average and had to attend remedial classes.
In fact, I had to resort to getting one of my teachers for my sophomore year to write one of my recommendation letters because I think my junior and senior year teachers had relatively less confidence in my abilities. In fact, they often persuaded me to take less demanding classes and to lower my expectations in life.
I often felt disappointed and questioned my capabilities. Also, because of the time I spent on school activities and academics, I did not have much time outside of school and missed opportunities to develop myself (e.g. take up an instrument, learn a foreign language, join cooking classes.)
I hope this gives you a better understanding of disposition. |