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I'm 15. I'll be a high school sophomore this year.
It's not performance anxiety. I think a lot of it has to do with my stresses at home. I come from an intersting situation that is really complex, and stressful.
I realized today that when I have panic attacks its normally when I'm alone, or disconected, like I'm in a group of people but thought wise I'm not connecting. Like during a concert I was playing in, I was around a lot of people but I wasn't attachted to a conversation.
I had an anxiety attack during a camp activity last week that I won't participate in. I was watching others do it, but not active in a conversation or in the act.
My very first one that started all of them as of recently I can pinpoint what set it off, but I'm not sure why something so simplistic would do it. (I'm sorry I can't go into too many details on this one. If I start with one detail it will lead to another and another.. The story itself isn't important.) The rest have just kind of come off and on. I had one last night also.
I think a certain extent is I'm not dealing with stress as well as I could. Normally I'd run, but in most of the situations where I can exactly point out exact and sdeveloped symptoms to an anxiety attack I'm not able to run, ie the concert, camp where the buddy rule is instituted, my first one where it was already late night, et cetera.
The most distinct thing for me when I'm having an anxiety attack is a deffinant quickened pulse. I can't really explain them. It's your normal anxiety attack I guess. I'll often end up crying by the end it I'm litterally alone.
What bugs me most is I can't figure out why they're coming so often. WHat made me worry about them today is that I noticed that they're all when I'm alone, and I get nervous enough on tough tests as is (I failed my Latin midterm this year with a 50-something% because I slept in and missed my first one of the day and had already been nervous about it, when normally I do fairly well on tests in that class.) that to be somewhat alone while testing and have an anxiety attack wouldn't be the most pleasent.
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