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jasoninpines · 11-20-2008, 07:10 PM

I have suffered personally from a mix of panic attacks, chronic anxiety, and depression for the past 2 1/2 years now. I was fine before that, but I was in my "drug experimental" phase and had one bad trip, and I guess it "flipped the switch"

Since then my life has been an internal hell, and at the beginning of it all, I moved to Gainesville to escape my problems. Well, as it turned out my anxiety and panic attacks rose to an all time high, and I was forced to move back. I probably have a different type of anxiety though, I truly convinced myself that I was dying due to daily headaches/body pains/lack of energy.

I turned into a hypochondriac, and was pretty much afraid to do anything. I went out and went to school, but if I did anything physical or out of the ordinary, even jumping once in the air, I would feel my heartbeat for a few minutes.

I had a few panic attacks which made me run out of class, as my chest was pounding so hard, that I drove myself to the emergency room, in which my heart was beating at 155bpm.

After my second year or so, I started to realize that enough is enough(in theory, didn't really happen). I stopped pretty much having "panic attacks" after going to cardiologists and visiting many many many doctors. I started to realize that I am truly depressed, despite very very short moments of happiness. I accomplish many things that would normally make me happy, but it is now looked upon as more of a futile task.

I'm still in this situation, but am going to be going on Paxil or some other SSRI/SNRI next week(I took it for 3 days in the past, but had a nosebleed and convinced myself that it was a brain hemorrhage).

Realisically, I do think taking this will solve a lot of my problems. I am a very smart student, and get As with no effort, but my lack of energy and focus due to all of my anxiety/depression problems make things very hard/unenjoyable for me. I know this post was sort of an endless spur of my own problems, but it's very hard to characterize what I went through and what I feel, as thought interpretation and memory can be a challenge when anxiety is on your mind 24/7.

Any specific questions or anything about your son I'm glad to help. I consider myself more qualified than most without any formal psych education, as in the past 2 years I must have done more research about my own condition then most in the actual major, lol.

11-20-2008, 07:10 PM	#12
jasoninpines Junior Member Join Date: Jun 2008 Posts: 188	I have suffered personally from a mix of panic attacks, chronic anxiety, and depression for the past 2 1/2 years now. I was fine before that, but I was in my "drug experimental" phase and had one bad trip, and I guess it "flipped the switch" Since then my life has been an internal hell, and at the beginning of it all, I moved to Gainesville to escape my problems. Well, as it turned out my anxiety and panic attacks rose to an all time high, and I was forced to move back. I probably have a different type of anxiety though, I truly convinced myself that I was dying due to daily headaches/body pains/lack of energy. I turned into a hypochondriac, and was pretty much afraid to do anything. I went out and went to school, but if I did anything physical or out of the ordinary, even jumping once in the air, I would feel my heartbeat for a few minutes. I had a few panic attacks which made me run out of class, as my chest was pounding so hard, that I drove myself to the emergency room, in which my heart was beating at 155bpm. After my second year or so, I started to realize that enough is enough(in theory, didn't really happen). I stopped pretty much having "panic attacks" after going to cardiologists and visiting many many many doctors. I started to realize that I am truly depressed, despite very very short moments of happiness. I accomplish many things that would normally make me happy, but it is now looked upon as more of a futile task. I'm still in this situation, but am going to be going on Paxil or some other SSRI/SNRI next week(I took it for 3 days in the past, but had a nosebleed and convinced myself that it was a brain hemorrhage). Realisically, I do think taking this will solve a lot of my problems. I am a very smart student, and get As with no effort, but my lack of energy and focus due to all of my anxiety/depression problems make things very hard/unenjoyable for me. I know this post was sort of an endless spur of my own problems, but it's very hard to characterize what I went through and what I feel, as thought interpretation and memory can be a challenge when anxiety is on your mind 24/7. Any specific questions or anything about your son I'm glad to help. I consider myself more qualified than most without any formal psych education, as in the past 2 years I must have done more research about my own condition then most in the actual major, lol.
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