I think that those rural new york winters are getting to you OP, as BDM highlighted you are boxing yourself into the idea that you MUST BE a doctor. Unless you pull off your sock and on the sole of your foot is a big birthmark that happens to say 'Born to be a doctor' then you are not a person who has no alternative than being a doctor. Perhaps you should consider other medical professions or focus on DO schools since name doesn't matter to you. Physicians assistant work, nurse practitioning, etc all have many of the medical service aspects that you are seeking. If you really can't think of anything else to do, take some time after college and get a job. There has to be at least one job out there that interests you, if not fulfills you. Save some money up, maybe do a post-bach or masters, then apply later if you truly can't give up your desire to be a doctor after having lived in the real world where not wanting to be a doctor/lawyer/CEO isn't contrary to the environment..