I've always been concerned with the financial side of college, but I kind of put it in the back of my mind to make myself content with my choices. Money isn't everything and it certainly isn't something I or my family needs to be happy so I'm OK with taking out loans. I just have to be careful with it and I don't want to make what could be a mistake. And to be honest, I've always thought about death. Nothing recently has happened, I just have known so many unhappy people who have done nothing to change it. I want to do something to make myself happy. I live by the expression "Everybody dies but nothing everyone lives." I want to live. I don't want to do something because I feel like I have to. Society implants the idea that after high school you go to college, get a job, get married, have kids, e.t.c. but I don't want to be just another follower, I guess?
And I know that college could make my happy. It's an exciting experience. I want an education, I do. I'm all over the place here. Sorry to get so deep here, I'm just trying to figure this all out.