Worrying about being good enough
My whole life I have been very confident. I have ALWAYS known I've wanted to be an actress/singer ever since I was 3. There was not one time in my life I ever considered doing something else. Because of my immense passion for the arts I started taking acting class when I was 6 and voice lessons when I was 7. I've also had a few years of dance. In addition to that I've taken Drama in high school all four years and chorus for 3 years (and chorus in school every single year from 4th grade onto 8th). I've been in an obscene amount of shows, and I've never gotten an ensemble part. I was cast as Sarah Brown in Guys and Dolls as a sophomore in a hugely competitive school. I feel as if I think I am good enough to get into a theatre school, and I know that's all I've ever wanted, but for some reason right now only 2 months away from my auditions I can't help but to feel massively worried that even with all of my rigorous training, maybe I'm not good enough and maybe there was something more I could have done. When I look at this list I've made just now, it seems as if I am more than qualified, but it's kind of completely out of my hands. I worry that the monologues/songs I've picked, while difficult and interesting somehow aren't going the extra mile musical theatre schools are looking for.
I don't really know what this post was supposed to accomplish, but I do know that I want this more than anyone could ever imagine.
I'm only applying to 2 schools, Marymount Manhattan and Pace.
What do you think?!