Scripps is full of wonderful, good-hearted, talented students, but there's only so much merit money to go around. I so
empathize, but the only advice I have is that you trust the process, imperfect though it may be. JES or no JES, gracieloos, you ended up in a great place (and judging from your position as an overnight host + guide, are making the most of it!)
Best of luck to this year's JES candidates. Enjoy the weekend, and please do post thoughts!