I haven't been accepted to any school I've applied to, and I'm at the point of just not knowing what to do and feeling like a failure... I will admit, my grades are not the best (C's and B's, some A's) due to some personal issues I've had to deal with throughout my life-but college's obviously don't care about that no matter how understated I try to make it and how I've had to overcome it. I'm a music major, more specifically an Audio Engineering major-at least that's what I want to be. I have not chosen this major for the money or anything of that nature-it's my passion. I've been doing it since sophomore year and progressing on my own and want nothing more to attend a college that will make me succeed in the real world. I really don't want to spend a year at a community college at all because it's almost a waste of a year for me taking general education classes and what not... I'm tired of just "doing school" for the grades. I want to learn and grow in what I'm passionate about, but it seems that is just not enough for colleges. I'm going to apply to smaller, less competitive schools near home, but I'm really doubting getting in after not getting into the schools I already applied to...
Schools I applied to: Indiana University in Bloomington, Belmont University, and Berklee College of Music.
I made the interview for IU, which only invites 50% of it's applicants for the program, and only 15 people are accepted. I was OK with not making it because I ended up not liking the professors or the way the program was set up. The only reason I know for sure I didn't get accepted into IU was because of my grades. Belmont did not really consider my musical background at all when rejecting me, I really have no idea. Just grades and my application were assessed. They were really quick in deciding. Berklee.. I honestly have no idea why I did not get in... I did my interview/audition and it went GREAT! I came out of that pretty confident, but when I look back now, I feel like I wasn't able to show them my true potential. I focused more on impressing them with what they are impressed with and what they know, but maybe that was my mistake? Trying to be more conservative instead of creative and not afraid of experimenting-taking chances. Berklee has no specific grades they look for, or ACT/SAT scores. They look at them, but talent is more important. So right now I just feel like a failure and don't know what to do.... What college will accept me? What do I need to do to get into college but also not waste a year?
I'm going to apply to Columbia College in Chicago and DePaul University as well, but I don't know if they will accept me... Any advice is appreciated.