I feel like committing suicide just typing this. I'm not going to be able to go to a real college because I failed 7 classes (2 P.E., 1 Sexuality 2 Geometry, 1 Earth Science and 1 English Class.) My school in the past did not use a term system, we have a quarter term system called cycles. So I failed 7 cycles, translating in term wise it would be 2 and a half classes.
Right now I'm taking AP Physics B and AP Economics, I'm preforming well. I would have taken Calculus AB or BC but they would not give it to me because I need a pre requisite of Pre-Calculus, I'm taking that at the moment and doing very well. I don't plan on getting anything lower than a 90 in ANY of my classes this year (So far working out wonderfully.) I will have a 3.5 GPA at the end of this year. I can't escape this depressed feeling of being rejected and not being able to go to a real college, resulting in going to a community. I also did horrible on the SAT the first two times because I'm stupid I have gotten a 1250 on my first try and a 1200 on my second... I didn't know it was possible to actually lower your grade on the SAT, I guess I'm just that retarded. I'm going to retake the SAT this December.
I applied to the following colleges:
Polytech of NYU
Long Island Uni
NYC College of Technology
Canton, College of Technology
What are my chances of getting into these colleges?
My friends are all smart and are applying to Ivy Leagues or very good colleges within the nation. They are confident they will get into their first choices. My friends laugh at me because they saw my transcript. They also said they are glad they aren't black (I'm half black) or they would be in my situation. I felt like utter crap when they said that and I was going to commit suicide that day. But my mom came home so I couldn't do it. The only reason I failed was because I didn't go to my classes, due to my clinical depression/social anxiety problems. My GPA is only 84 at the moment. If I get rejected from college I think I'm going to commit, I can't think straight ever since I've submitted some of my college applications. I haven't slept in 2 days. What should I do to remedy this problem? Other than seeing a psychologist.