I'm not sure if this is the right place to post this thread, so forgive me if I have made an error.
It is somewhat hard for me to document all of my emotions, but I will do my best.
Just for some background information: I go to a small liberal arts school in New England that is known for partying. I'm a guy. I love playing and watching sports, but did not make the tennis team as I had planned. I'm not one for parties. Nor do I have any interest in drinking. I live 90 minutes away from home so going home for some weekends is an option.
I am in my fourth week of Freshmen year. So far, my time here has been unfulfilling. My orientation was really bad. It was a loooong five days, and I'm ashamed to say I probably cried more during those five days than the last ten years of my life combined. At that point in time, I felt really bad.
Things have improved significantly since then. Unfortunately, that is not to say that I am now enjoying my time on campus. I have established a group for friends (there are 8 of us) who I spend a good amount of time with. The only problem is that I only really like 4 (myself included) of them. And even then, they still annoy me to an extent. The main issue is that I only have things in common with one of them. None, except one, has any interest in sports or any real physical activity. The others are nice enough, but I don't find myself wanting to be around them, I find myself wanting to be around just about anyone. So I am grateful to be in a group, it's just that this group isn't that great. Another problem with them is that we don't really do anything for fun. We are either eating, working, or we just sit around and hang out. That gets boring pretty fast.
I feel as though my days consist of waking up, going to class, going to the gym (which I really enjoy), eating, and doing work. There isn't anything that I really do for fun. I enjoy the gym, but I wouldn't say I'm having an absolute blast while I'm there. These days aren't miserable, as I do find I'm somehow pretty busy. But when I go to bed at night I think to myself, "what did I really do today," and it's always the same few activities. And none of them really do it for me.
In a way I was banking on my time being occupied by the tennis team, which didn't happen. There is no club team at my school. I looked into clubs, but I was unimpressed by the options. There aren't unlimited options, as I was told. This is probably because it is a small school.
I think a big issue that is preventing me from meeting the types of people I want to befriend is that the people who share my interests by and large are the party types, and those who don't party don't enjoy the same things I do.
It's just such a contrast from my small highshool (500 kids total) where I didn't need to earn respect or a reputation and I had the same friends from K-12. I just miss my friends, my family, and my status. I really thought I would thrive at college.
I'm sorry to have rambled on and on, and I am grateful for any advice or sympathy you all are willing to give.