diahni

Dukeletter,
I can relate. You have to remember that there's nothing wrong with dissociating yourself from toxic relatives. Friends are God's way of apologizing for your family. Also remember that even people who seem to have "perfect" families just may have problems you don't know about. Families are supposed to help each other. If yours is doing nothing but wearing you down, what's the point? Blood isn't always thicker than water. If your birth family is messed up, you can make a family of your own choosing.

HoppingLass

It helps to be gentle with oneself too. We are often so hard on ourselves. This is a very challenging time as everyone waits to hear from schools -- and High school isn't over yet.
It's ok to just sit in the sunshine and take a break.

NUCLEAR MAN

Alkassalam o alaikum,
hey,first of all i will like appreciate your deteremination and willpower that ggest that you should gorget about the past..or any thing of presrent that is happening bad becaude there is none of your fault. You should look ahead...a shining future awaits you brother...as soon as you feel that its the rite time to marry,do it..but sincerely...choose a partner for whole life.
If you ever need a friend,talk with me.

Ryansheart

You can do it man! Do not give up!

Obstinate

I also recommend A Hope In The Unseen. My family situation, while not as bad as others, is pretty tough to deal with. Then I head to school to deal with kids that would be content with seeing me fail, in a community in which the things I'm passionate about are pretty much null and void. I have to search far and wide for things I'm passionate about, but it's really tough when you're fighting against a dysfunctional family, isolation at school, bullying, etc. Brown's my top choice also, so A Hope In The Unseen was like a godsend for me. I read it religiously whenever I feel at the end of my ropes. I'm on my fourth read as of right now. I can relate to Cedric's struggles in so many ways, and I hope to see myself one day in the same place as he is.

BKPJ

You should be very proud of how you've persevered. You sound wonderful, and all your hard work will pay off.

BananaSandwich15

i totally understand. my hard work paid off in big ways as well, but now i'm in my town's paper every other day and i have people coming up to me and asking me all these questions. and my fam is always talking about it and stuff so i feel kind of like a show pig.

it's all cool i guess but i'm just not a very social kid and all the attention is draining.

i just used the fact that once i graduate i'll get away from it all as motivation. keep your eye on the prize. within a few months you'll have left all that behind and can be the person you really are

Northstarmom

Congratulations, Banasandwich on your accomplishments. Warmest wishes as you prepare to go off to college.

BananaSandwich15

Thank you

Abyssion

Yeah, you'll be surprised at how many people have to go through family problems, childhood trauma, and school issues. We all have our share of pain but we get through it eventually and in the end when the battle is over, we truly are a better person if we followed through with the right decisions. Just know that there is someone out there that cares about you... you know, never give up ya.

reillytheman

move in with me because im going to NYU and i need an apartment mate