...and by the looks of it, there's very little chance of passing.
If you've been active on this forum, you've probably seen some of my posts. If you want context, look here: http://talk.collegeconfidential.com/college-life/1404827-so-i-just-failed-midterm.html
and here: http://talk.collegeconfidential.com/college-life/1412061-three-months-really-bad-experience.html
The situation is, I took a second midterm yesterday, probably answered less than half the questions, and walked out of the lecture hall feeling like I'd just gone twelve rounds with Pacquiao. Suffice to say, I know a failed, even with a curve, and it was a pretty significant portion of my grade.
Did I study? Yes. I did the reading, did the practice problems, got pretty far along in the project we've been working on, and even singlehandedly organized a study group to go over the subject on the night before the exam.
The class is a 300 level Comp Sci class meant for Comp Sci majors and Mechanical Engineers that I was told was an Intro class. I'd never taken any programing previously, whereas many of my classmates have, and was hoping to get a sense for it in this class. Bad idea. I don't even dislike programming, but it's very apparent I'm not operating at the level expected. And I'll be the first one to say there's no excuses--it's my fault.
I seriously feel like throwing up, and it's basically been one constant stomach ache since yesterday. I'm angry at the school for setting a freshman genetics major up with this class and not warning him, I'm upset because I let my parents down (and they're the ones basically paying for my schooling), but mostly, I'm angry at myself for doing so poorly and not achieving what I set out to do. I mean, I essentially do nothing
except school work. I have no job right now, I don't really have any real responsibilities, and I've never "partied" in my life. I had ONE THING to accomplish and I failed.
I don't think I'm a dumb person, you guys. I am
the classical CC kid--self-motivated, valedictorian, 97+ percentile ACT score, self-studied APs, state-qualified athlete. I came here as a Genetics major with prehealth or grad school hopes, and already it looks like those have been trashed. This first semester of college has been a complete reversal of fortunes.
And not to be a drama queen or anything, but I even welled up a little as I typed this, haha. It's just that I asking myself, "where do I go from here?" There's bad and then there's really bad, and my situation seems really, really bad.
What do I do, you guys? I have other midterms coming up before Thanksgiving, but at this point I'm so defeated I don't know if I can get enthused about the material. It just seems like a really dire situation, and as if I should already be thinking about plan B--dropping out and getting a job.