Sorry this will be long.. I just moved in to a large SEC university yesterday that's about 4 hours away from home. I was really excited & ready to go until orientation about a month ago (you come & stay one night & 2 days) and then it hit me that I wasn't sure I had made the right choice, I didn't want to leave my family at all. As the last 4 weeks at home went by, I dreaded moving. I would have little bursts of excitement, but they were rare. I am extremely close to my family, and I haven't ever really been away from them my entire life. I have pretty bad anxiety too. Today, I cried most of the time I drove down here. I wasn't excited. When we first drove in the city I felt a little excited, but it quickly went away. I'm starting rush for sororities today (it's actually 5:15 in the morning as I type this) , and I wish I hadn't even signed up (really only did bc one of my roommates is) and I honestly plan on withdrawing from recruitment after the first round because I don't see myself staying in or liking a sorority. My mom stayed in a hotel last night, and she is going to come see me one more time before she leaves. I feel sad and panicky already, I cried & cried & cried before she left for her hotel last night . I know it's only the second day but I can't bear the thought of being away from my family, I'm more attached to them than your average person my age. At this point I'm thinking if I even make it through this semester, I want to transfer back to the university in my hometown after Christmas. I've literally been thinking about how I can come home the most often. I want to go home every weekend, but I know I won't always be able to. I don't want to go longer than two weeks without being home, and even then I'll still be miserable. I just have this horrible feeling in my chest and all I want to do is go back home. I honestly wish I could just go back and have stayed at the college at home. I know a lot of people get over homesickness, but I was homesick before I even left home. I dreaded coming & I only did bc I didn't want to look bad. Idk if this is possible, but I wish I could contact the college at home & see if I could switch back there & still get my scholarship, since the school year hasn't started yet.