I'm a freshman student in college (2 hours away from home) and I'm having a seriously difficult time adjusting to my new life. I'm an only child and I've been very close to my parents and other family for my whole life. The week before I started college was terrible; I couldn't keep down food, random panic attacks, etc. It's gotten better since I've been here, and I've already gone home twice, but I still can't feeling sad and crying for hours upon hours. I've been established at my school's counseling center, take two types of anxiety medicine and signed up for group anxiety sessions (anxiety is genetic in my family from my mother's side). My parents have been very supportive and encouraging during this hard time, but it's been going on for a month and I can tell I'm starting to stress them out just by being stressed out.
I am in choir, go to weekly church events and joined a bible study group. I have two friends that came to this school with me, but one seems to be completely fine and absorbed in studying all the time and the other is my ex and this makes things a little awkward for me sometimes.
I do like my school and when I've gone home I have found myself missing it at first. But then I come back and it's just so hard. I've never been the type of person who has many friends or joins sororities and parties, I go to bed pretty early and at home I was good with texting a few select friends.
I just don't know what to do. I've heard that it will get better with time but I feel as if I will never truly be able to stop crying or freaking out at random times (especially in public). I can't focus on my studies at all--if I try to study I end up getting homesick. My roommate doesn't want to talk to me. I just don't know what to do.