I have taken the GRE and scored a respectable 710 V 770Q.
I have also taken an IQ test and scored a 135.
I am still very worried though and do not feel qualified to do anything beyond pushing grocery carts let alone go to Grad school.
By far the greatest challenge I face is communication. I just dont know how to do it. Talking to people is near impossible. I have never really held a conversation with anyone and have no clue how to do it. My mind is always a blank slate and nothing connects. I have absolutely no analytical or critical thinking skills. I am incapable of writing papers and do poorly on essay tests any time I take them. For some reason though when something is presented in a clear cut multiple choice format I can solve it like on a GRE or IQ test.
I cant understand this discrepancy between my life experience and my test scores. I am relieved that the tests say I am not an idiot as I was starting to suspect, but I am also more confused than ever. Why is it that I cant write, talk, or pretty much think critically at all yet I do fairly well (certainly better than one would predict given how retarded I sound) on tests of intelligence?
Both my parents were IVY league educated and my sister was valedictorian and went to Oxford. I am the black sheep of the family and I know they are ashamed of me for being so stupid. I wound up at University of Connecticut and when they discuss politics or philosophy I can not contribute anything. Words start spinning in my head but nothing comes to my tongue.
Please help me understand what is wrong with me. I dont have autism or anything like that. I am also not insane. Is there an explanation for how a person can have a 135 IQ but have no critical thinking skills? Thank you for any replies. Maybe you suffer from a similar problem. It would be nice if I could meet other people who have the same problem.