For the past 5 years of my life, I've been committed to one career path and one career path only: Engineering. The type of engineer has varied (Aerospace, Computer, Software, Environmental), but it's always been my goal. I'm a high school girl finishing up junior year and starting to narrow down colleges, focusing on Engineering. The problem is, I suck at math. Every class i'm taking right now is a breeze EXCEPT for AP Calculus AB. I just don't understand it! I've been struggling the whole year, going between tutors, studying for hours, coming in for help (and a whole lot of tears lol) but it just is not clicking.
By some stroke of luck, I've managed a very low B-, but with the final coming up, that might turn into a C. On top of that, I'm behind on my Science classes. I was supposed to take AP Chem this year, but unsurprisingly, I sucked at that too and had to drop it. I passed AP Bio with a B last year, but now i'm stressing about next year, where i'm most likely going to have to take Physics (because of engineering), which I might struggle with just as much, as well as AP Chem. From everything that I've seen, Engineering isn't going to work out for me, which sucks because i'm honestly really interested in it. I plan on taking AP Calc BC next year, but i'm scared it's just going to get worse.
I had never even considered the possibility that I might not be amazing at engineering, so I haven't really thought about any other majors. I'm stressed beyond belief, because I really feel like I have to narrow down colleges, but how am I supposed to do that if I have no idea what i'm going to major in? The entire situation just makes me feel like a total idiot, and i'm terrified for the future. Should I start looking for other majors? I don't even know where to start.