Coz you see, my problem is that most of my social interaction are very awkward, and some are really negative. I easily run out of words to say, and I cannot seem to express my opinion very well. I'm beginning to think that some people who had mistreated me in the past were right -- there is something wrong with my intelligence level . Funny thing is I graduated in college with an average GPA through handwork. I don't really struggle at school. I am not the brightest, but I am okay enough that I pass my coursework.
Now, my boss... He doesn't like me. I am the most quiet, extremely shy employee around, and I do my job and leave. I do not really socialize, and I tend to sit in my cubicle all day, except for breaks and lunches. Yesterday, I heard him talk about thinking of firing someone because that person act like a"mindless drone" and that is not good for the office environment. He wants more upbeat people.
I do not know if that's enough reason to fire me, but I am scared...
I had a temp job before and I wasn't offered full-time position because of the same thing.
It keeps happening to me. I try to be a different person. I cannot keep up with that kind of facade. It's tiring, it makes me feel sick .