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Stressed out by controlling parents - Please help!
I have this ongoing conflict with my parents which is spiralling out of control - I'm just so stressed and I don't know what to do! Sorry for throwing such a long chunk of text at you guys but I would really really appreciate any advice
So the situation is:
Just finished my first year of college. I attend an expensive private college which my parents are paying for; let's call it X. In high school, I played piano at a very high level (did national + international competitions). Parents initially refused to send me to X - they wanted me to attend a cheaper college near home where they could monitor me better (they are very strict/controlling and say they don't trust me). They eventually gave in after a lot of persuasion, provided I meet their conditions - one of them is they want me to pursue piano professionally alongside doing all of my academic work. I don't want to be a pianist (I'm interested in tech/cs) and I don't really enjoy piano, but I agreed since X is my dream college - I'd basically do anything to go there.
But I think it would be better for both of us if I reduced the amount of piano I do (time reasons for me, especially since X is so academically demanding, and money reasons - lesson fees etc - for them). So I explained to this to them and asked them if it would be ok if I reduce the amount of piano I do. This was absolutely disastrous - they kept threatening to stop paying my tuition!
Now, I know I made a deal when they let me go to X and I can't win when they pull the tuition card, so I should probably tough it out til I graduate. The thing is, they are also forcing me to pretend to like piano - they shut me down with the tuition card if I even try to hint that I'm not enjoying the amount of piano I do. Worse, now that they are moving to a different state, they are seriously considering buying a small apartment in my hometown, just so that I can continue taking lessons with a teacher there that they like. This seems really crazy to me - why would they do this when I've already told them that I don't enjoy piano?! I know I should tell them again because I'm worried that they'll actually go through with it and waste their money, but I'm just so so scared that they'll actually withdraw my tuition this time.
And then they complain to me that I'm not improving because "my heart isn't in the music". I just don't know what to do anymore. It seems like they want to force me to like piano - but I can't force myself to like piano even if I wanted to. All of this is making me resent piano tbh, which is sad.