I apologize if this isn't the best read ever. It's late, and I wouldn't say the following is an accurate reflection of my writing skills by any means. I'm just spilling my thoughts at the moment.
Two weeks ago, I was turning into a freaking basket case reading this forum. I thought I had a chance at Tufts... but after seeing some of the superb stat lists here I've realized there's no realistic way I can compete with some of the better qualified applicants out there. I kept trying to convince myself I have some kind of second chance at improving myself over the next 3 years, when I should've been thinking this way since the very beginning. My freshman GPA, though weighted with honors classes, is very poor. This sophomore year I'm taking only 2 honors classes, should've taken 3 AP classes and the rest honors, but it's too late now. My 4.1 GPA this term doesn't mean anything if I didn't take AP classes. I've never held a leadership position, and honestly my ECs just feel like padding. I should've been starting clubs, winning awards, making a nationwide name for myself, while keeping a perfect 4.0 GPA. Too late. I can still try for the whole "Improvement" angle, but seriously, I don't think it's going to help.
I've been slowly pulling myself together after the initial shock. Perhaps I'm simply not destined for the colleges of my dreams. I don't feel angry at others, but I do feel tinges of regret. If I don't go to a prestigious college, will others judge me for it? What is a rejection letter? Is it a kind correspondence that the institution acknowledges my interest, but couldn't accept me over the more qualified applicants, or is it a gravely serious judgement of my personhood by my academic superiors?
Some of what I read here seems ridiculous, especially the "Chance threads". These days, admissions seem like sort of a gamble. Maybe it's just jealousy, but in chance threads I see a bunch of arrogant kids talking hopeful applicants down, as if they spoke for the institutions in question.