So I'm making my transition from High school to college at this point. Graduation is around the corner and I should be off to a college soon enough. Some things about me before you read the following is that I love things that do with film/ media/ and creativity, I was never a sit down do the work for 8-9 hours type of guy. Anyways, moving on, I didn't do so good in school, but I am willing to work and stride for something if it seems worth it. So my question for the longest time was: what do I want to do in my life? I know for sure that something like computer science or high stress related jobs are out of the question. I realized early that I really do not want to be unhappy later in life in exchange for a high paying salary. I want to make enough to live off and have a little fun along the way and be able to enjoy my job, well more than the average cubicle worker. I grew up in an area/ city full of computer science people or computer engineers, and I don't think I want to go down that path. My choice for college next year is De Anza Community College, do a two year program, get into a TAG program and be off to some UC. Problem is, I don't know what major to study and work towards in the school I might transfer to. My other option is to remain in my hometown, San Jose, and go to SJSU and work towards a major like computer science or something un-enjoyable in a city I desperately want to leave. I'm scared if things don't work out at CC, life is over for me, or at least harder to come back from. SJSU is also impacted and has much competition for those computer science related majors also. Recently, I also considered the social aspect of a transfer if I were to get in. Most people at CC are in one year and out the next, etc. etc. I thought about this and I realized I wouldn't make many long term friends and when I really do transfer into a school, most people have built up this 1-2 year relationship with their friends and I'll just be a loner sticking out. A lot of these things that I mentioned, insecurity, uncertainty, fear of social development, all have taken their toll on me these last few weeks of deciding on what to do. I don't want to mess up and end up with some degree that I don't need and not get a job, and go down the bad path beyond return.