So this is my second year at a pretty big university. I commuted my first year and it was hard because I don't actually live that close to my school, about an hour to and from, so it was inconvenient (hard to study as much as I needed to) but I think a lot of what drove my unhappiness was my mental health, so I'm absolutely responsible for my performance, which was bad. I've had pretty serious anxiety and depression for years, I haven't treated it the way I should have and I'm working on that now. But it was a huge issue in high school and it became an even bigger one when I started college.I moved on campus this year and 2 days in, which granted doesn't mean much, I'm doing my assignments, reading, hw, etc on time and some of it early, but I feel worse than I ever have save for a severe depressive episode a few years back. I genuinely have not been able to cope, like I can't stop crying and I'm too afraid to talk to friends, among other things I won't get into. I know this is a long start but I want to explain the severity of my situation right now.
I want to go to med school. The way I am right now, I know I can't make it there. I might not even be able to get through the year. If I took a year off, is that indicative of a bad work ethic or that I don't have what it takes? I fully intend to come back when I'm doing better but would it be detrimental to reaching my goals if I took time off to fully focus on getting better? I guess my concern is that I don't want to spend a year doing basically nothing but I need a lot of therapy. So much that I'm thinking it needs to be my primary focus.
Tldr, am very depressed right now and will try to get better but if I need to take a year off will it harm my goals?