it's also pathetic how I'm reading so much, but all I'm learning about is about arbitrary social conventions that are useless for the vast majority of particles. social conventions that are useless for the vast majority of parallel universes as well. it hurts. history is such social convention. as with a lot of other things. like models and programming, and the names and symbols you give to mathematical formulations
and it's all going to end up like this
when you're 15, you're halfway to 30, which is in turn halfway to 60, halfway to 120
when you're 20, you're halfway to 40, which is in turn halfway to 80, halfway to 160
and i compulsively check the wikipedia recent deaths article. a lot of people who were born OMG in 1918/1919 are now nearing 90 years of age. When I was born they were only nearing 70 years of age. blahh
and it's pathetic too, i'm at the peak of my mental and physical performance now and it could be all squandered.
of course it wouldn't be squandered if there was actually an INTERESTING computer game that didn't make so many oversimplifications. a computer game that's actually complex. maybe it could be run on parallel processing, and then you would log onto the world and be a small character. yes massively multiplayer. but NOT those stupid mmorpgd