Hey guys, I'm new to this, but my friend recommended me that there are many wise and objective people here who could help me. I am a rising senior and I had a boyfriend who broke up with me three weeks ago.
So my ex and I were really close friends since 9th grade and that led to us having a good relationship. We were dating since last March.
Although I loved him a lot, I never thought he was 'the one'. I knew I was going to break up with him, and I actually kept in mind that I would do so when I go to college. The reason why was because he and I were very different from the start.
I am a top-ranked student with the highest GPA, had leadership positions in various sport teams and clubs, had a clear goal of what I wanted to be in the future and which university I would choose to go. My boyfriend, he was never liked by the teachers. He was a very nice person, but he wasn't enthusiastic in anything and still does not know which college he would apply to. The only thing he loves is football, but his parents do not support him being an athlete.
This was also the reason why my boyfriend declared an end to our relationship few weeks ago. I was very busy last month, taking AP exams, SAT, and was also the president of student council organizing prom. This made him tired of waiting and being lonely all the time. He does not take any AP exams so he had nothing to do while all his other friends and I were busy preparing for college. He told me I was too busy and we had nothing in common. He wants to meet someone like him, girls in our school who are free. (I honestly think they are so messed up and him going out with them is the last thing I want to see.)
Here's the strange part: I knew he was not the one and have been telling myself that I would break up with him when I go to college, but I feel terribly sad and heartbroken. I heard he went to the beach with some other girls today and that made me so upset I had to cry all day.
Do I still love him?