I am currently in a very odd place.
I am only in my second semester of college, and yet I feel that it's getting to be too much.
Starting the second week of school (back from winter break), I already felt that I was drowning in homework. I felt as if I had no way out of it. When I attempted to do homework, I could not concentrate at all. It was not due to Facebook or texts, I just COULD NOT concentrate. My mind was/is working at an unnecessarily-high speed. I just can't control it. This, of course, caused me an incredible amount of stress. This stress led to a sense of hopelessness, which caused me to quit even trying to do my work. I have stopped going to classes since the middle of the second week of school, and I just continue to feel incredibly amounts of guilt and fear. I feel that whatever is going on in my mind has taken hold, and it is not easing its grip.
Some background: I have had depressive episodes in the past which have made day-to-day life seem impossible (and it definitely seems to be some sort of episode right now). I have had (academic) difficulties like this before, but this is the first time that I can't seem to shake it off. Most concerning is that whatever is going on has started to take a physical toll. My body has started to have aches, I have had three colds within the last two months (I RARELY get sick, ever) and I have had my period twice in one month.
Currently, I don't know whether to stay in school or take a medical withdrawal.
I have been seeing a therapist for about a month and a half, but school caused me to slip up on my progress. My parents are incredibly upset that their only child is even considering "quitting" college, but at the same time, all I do right now is sit in my dorm and cry/worry.
So, my main question is, would a withdrawal actually help? If not, how on earth do I get caught up with nearly two-weeks worth of work in just a few days?
I just want to make my parents (and myself) happy. And right now, the three of us are very far from that.