I'm a 19 year old male who has depression (moderate). I was always socially awkward due to the fact that I was kept at home and not permitted to go out and play as a child by my mother. I was home-schooled during high school and never really had a social circle of friends for that reason. I have a few acquaintances but no real friends. As a result, I have developed severe social anxiety. I have never had a social life.
I currently live in a small/medium sized suburb and pretty much know no one outside my family in my area. I can't even work in an office/public location because I have a disabled brother I have to take care of. He gets home from school at 2 pm. I have been taking care of him since I was 9 years old. I, therefore, work from home.
I am also taking a leave of absence from college (to which I commute) since I hate going there. I just go to class and go home. I can't even join clubs due to my family obligations. I can make friends in class but can never hang out with them because I take care of my brother. That's not to say I don't do well: 3.8 gpa on a pre-med track. I just feel like I'm wasting my time.
There are a lot of problems in my home that hurt both my brother and I: parents hate each other, they fight daily, not much money (therefore have to work), brother, who is autistic, is in a negative environment all the time, etc.
My parents are not able to take care of my brother. He becomes violent with them, and my mom already has mild depression.
If you guys/girls were in my situation, what would you do? Should I advise my parents to send my brother to a group home? At that point, I can transfer to a college at which I can dorm?
I'm already seeing a psychiatrist/getting therapy but it doesn't seem to be helping much. I feel like my environment is just **** everything up.
If you were in my shoes, what would you do?
Didn't really know where to post this. lol.