Due to a syndrome I was born with (causing me to look a bit different than others) I have been dealing with anxiety (panic attacks, etc) for quite awhile now, especially throughout high school. It caused me to hold back in many situations, as I had a huge fear of being judged and talked about by peers. My grades began to slip, my absences increased, I was always unhappy, and sort of gave up on a lot of things. In high school I never had too many friends, wasn't very social, never went out of my comfort zone. Did enough just to make it by. Although I tend to be pretty social, I try not to isolate myself TOO much. I had many acquaintances, but I only graduated with 2-3 close friends. Honestly, I was actually surprised to even get into a University, but my acceptance gave me a burst of energy.
A few months ago I began going to a therapist where I was told that I had generalized anxiety, OCD, and body dysmorphia. Which I have begin taking the SSRI, Zoloft for. Which has indeed helped, but as I do have a syndrome that basically feeds my anxiety and body dysmorphia it can be a little difficult even with the medication. I've decided to do a random roommate in hopes this will help me open up to meeting new people of different backgrounds, take me out of my comfort zone socially (etc), I really want college to be a fresh start, I don't want my anxiety to hinder me, and define who I am. Because I am much more than my anxiety. I am just extremely scared that my social life will be the same as it was in high school. Somehow, I just always seem to never make solid connections with others, as many people my age are only up for superficial conversation and small talk. I guess you can say I'm pretty picky about who I give the title of "friends" to.
I guess what I'm asking is, what are tips to expand my social life in college? How can I stop focusing on everything wrong with myself and focus on the things people may love about me?