Hello, I'm having a issue and hoped that some of you could help. I just graduated high school, and decided shortly thereafter that I'm going to Duquesne University, one of my top picks. I was very happy and enthusiastic, and started to buy things for my dorm and looking at clubs. My exuberant mood lasted for a few weeks, but has recently disappeared. I thought I was ready to go to college in Pittsburgh (I live in Baltimore right now) but I now feel that I'm not ready. To put everything in context, I have never had an anxiety attack in my life, but have had several in the past week. I haven't gotten a good night sleep in nearly a week, and food looks dull and sickening. I'm overtired, miserable, and snappy. And I haven't even gotten to college yet.
I know pre-college nerves are totally normal (and to be expected) but I think mine are over the top. And before I made any rash decisions (I tend to when I'm overtired and not thinking straight) I would like to know what you all think of my dilemma.
Is going to Duquesne worth it at this rate? One one hand I have an academic scholarship and have already bought most of my dorm furniture. I worry that if I don't go I will regret that decision for the rest of my life. However, I worry about my mental health too, when I'm so far away from home. I don't want to get self destructive or have to depend on medicine to calm my nerves and help me sleep at night. I worry about self destructing from stress. On the other hand, there is a community college near my house that I could go to, that would be easier financially on my family. I've already been accepted there (and have taken classes before during my senior year of high school) and it would ease my current condition and I would be less likely to made self destructive decisions. However, everyone from my former high school goes there, and the academics are sub-par at best. What do you think I should do?
I appreciate any advice that you can give me. Thank you.