Hello, I'm currently a few months shy of 27. Obviously it's too late to apply anywhere this fall, but it's always a good idea to start planning ahead.
I've been out of college for a few years now. While I got my Bachelor's, my first experience as an undergrad was a miserable hell. I feel like I'm going to have a mental breakdown every time I hear someone refer to college as "the best years of your life". Life afterward has not been much different. Due to things both inside and outside my control, my early adulthood (generally considered to be the pinnacle of life) was a flop. I need to make a radical adjustment and this seems like a way to hit the "reset" button.
Since I don't want to live the rest of my life in regret, I'm thinking about going for it again and getting the real experience this time around. As a major I'd likely choose film and follow my passion this time, since I already have my "safety" degree. I'd join a fraternity to get the full experience of lifelong brotherhood, social life and belonging to something (I joined a colony as an undergrad that quickly shut down due to half the chapter being incomprehensibly lazy and selfish). I'd choose a more well-rounded school this time rather than just picking the highest ranked one.
But of course, my age is the one thing that makes this reboot a bit difficult. The advantage is that I'm constantly told that I look to be about 19-23. Plus how often do you actually ask someone's age in college? It's kind of just assumed that everyone is around the same age. I know I don't have a whole ton of time left before I stick out like a sore thumb, so if I'm going to make things right it'd better be in the near future.
I just want to do anything I can to repair the mess I've made. So many people in the world would give an arm and a leg for the opportunities I've had, and thus I can't just allow myself to squander them.
Am I just desperately coping or can I actually pull this off?