I really don't know what to do anymore...My gpa is a 2.1.
How it got this low has to do with my life. I'm expecting a lot of people to reply to this and be ugly/mean, but in all sincerity I am asking for help or advice or even a pep talk. So let me start from the beginning of my college career..
My first two semester went great, but then took a nose dive. I have a neurological problem and was plagued with fits from this illness, I would email my professor and let them know what was going on, but despite my communication and effort to continue my progess academically it just wasn't enough...couple that with an abusive(verbally and physically) mother who forced me to work full time while going to school full time (15+ hours) I continued to do awfully in class. I even had a talk with one of my academic advisors about what was going on at home and asked for advice but none was given. I had an accident involving me falling out of a window(which caused me to have my hands and arms bandaged up) while I was taking a Chemistry course with a lab and the professor refused to let me wait to take the final...then i had a miscarriage. While all of this was going on my grandmother, who in essence was more of a mother to me than my own biological mother was, was dying a slow painful death. A week into the Fall 2011 semester she died. (May she rest in peace.) I left to my hometown of lubbock,tx for the funeral services. I even notified my professor of the situation. Only two out of those professors helped me out...
All of these events happened right after one another over the span of my entire academic career. I feel defeated. In all honesty I know I could have dropped out of college but I felt that I truly would be failing if I gave up and quit...but I feel as though that all of my trying just wasn't enough and I ended up ****ing myself over by trying and failing miserably. I know that there are responses that will be rude and hurtful, but try put yourself in my shoes and try to help me. I'm really losing my faith in my academic capabilities. :(
I just want a fresh start...is that too much to ask for?
Should I write an essay to UTSA(the university I want to transfer to) and explain to them what happened with my GPA?
Could I wipe my transcript clean?
WHAT SHOULD I DO?!