I recently found out I was suspended from Clemson University for failing to meet academic eligibility requirements (AKA grades). This is after my 3rd semester in college, having spent al if my freshman year on academic probation for the same reasons.
Being suspended obviously sucks, but what scares me even more is the fact that I put in more effort this semester than all of last year combined, yet somehow came out worse.
I'll be the first to admit that my freshman year was completely wasted by me going to parties all the time, staying up far too late at night, and all around laziness and lack of focus. My cumulative GPA after my freshman year ended up being a 0.92.
Over the summer of 2017 I found myself a part time job just to keep myself busy and try to gain some responsibility about myself, as well as taking a few classes at a local Tech school to make up a few credits for classes I had failed at Clemson.
When I returned for the fall semester that I just finished, I had a new mindset and felt prepared to get myself back on track to get off of probation and begin recovering my GPA. I found a new friend group and began going to the library regularly. I probably spent more time in one week in the library than I had all of freshman year. I got off to a strong start, and had A's and B's going into the 3rd round of exams. This is when things went south. I didn't pass a single one of my exams this round. I could have studied more, I told myself, so I got myself back together and spent every hour I wasn't eating in the library for finals. I even slept in the library a few nights. All of this only to finish worse than I had done my freshman year. This past semester my GPA did what I thought it couldn't possibly do: it got even worse. I dropped down to a .83 cumulative GPA.
My question is what should I do over the course of my semester of suspension, and what could have led me to do even worse in a semester where I put forth more effort than the entire year before?