I have always loved writing. It has always been a channel for me to authentically express myself, to explore new ideas, and to exercise my creativity. However, my style of writing has always been quite flowery and abstract. I have a naturally non-linear writing style that flows freely, like a stream of consciousness, but can sometimes be difficult to understand. My mind always spins with metaphors and imagery, and conveying these thoughts through writing has always been a joy to me. I wish to express myself fully and authentically in my college essay, but I fear that colleges will find my writing style too pretentious, decked out in "purple prose". I have a a free-flowing writing style that bleeds with my thoughts, feelings, and emotions. While many people might interpret my writing as trying too hard to be creative, it comes freely and naturally to me. I wish I could simply allow my thoughts to expand without worry, to unleash my insecurities and to genuinely express myself through my words. However, at the same time, because my writing is deeply personal and filled with subjective observations and metaphors, I feel that colleges may not understand the ideas I am trying to convey. I think (as of now), that I will write an essay about a quote that my elementary grade teacher told me that profoundly impacted my perspective in life, and I want to allow it to take form in my thoughts, flowing wildly without rule or convention. I care so much about expressing myself in the truest way, but my naturally poetic thought process can come across as a puzzle sometimes, filled with non-linear thoughts and abstract observations.
It's as if I am molding a sculpture of my thoughts, shaping each idea and nuance into my own unique sculpture. It expresses who I am, holding my fears, dreams, and hopes. But to others, it comes across as confusing, pretentious and like a blob of clay, with no meaning or substance.
Should I allow my thoughts to freely wander, abstractly, bringing my perspectives onto the page? Or should I try to keep my style linear and traditional? I want to express myself in a unique and thoughtful way, but I don't want to come across as pretentious or confusing.
Thanks so much for your help!