I apologize in advance for the wordwall.
I don't know how I'm going to pay for college... key word being "I'm."
My family is poor and my grades aren't that good where I'm getting a lot of scholarships. I only have a 3.0 unweighted.
My mom and her boyfriend are making me very stressed. I was thinking I could take out student loans to pay for all 4 years, as bad as student loans are. My mom has almost maxed out her credit card just applying for housing, orientation, etc. for the college I was accepted into, as well as other expenses she has, and she's extremely responsible with her money. Her boyfriend told me that I better get scholarships rolling in or on the first day of college they'll call me into the office and tell me I can't come unless I pay (those aren't his exact words.) I haven't told him I was thinking about taking out student loans because he is strongly against them and will get angry at me. I've had enough of him and don't need to make him any more angry or I'll go nuts. I'll admit that I have only submitted one scholarship application which is the Florida Bright Futures, and I have done my FASFA too. My parents have stressed me out to a point where I'm getting almost nothing done. I have to apply for jobs, fill out college stuff and keep my grades up in a very competitive school at the same time and they took away my entertainment privileges for getting a C in a class. I'm pretty much burned out. I can't relax at all and I've been deprived of good sleep for most of the past few months. Their expectations are far too high, there is no way I can do all of this at once without any time to de-stress and on insufficient sleep. I didn't sleep at all last night or the night before. I'm trying all I can to get everything done that I need but I'm only one person. Nobody in my family has ever been to college and I don't think my parents understand how much stress I'm dealing with. My mom is completely clueless and asks me questions about everything that is unimportant and my patience is beginning to run out with everything else I'm trying to deal with. It's getting to a point where I'm seriously considering doing adult movies just to pay for college! I don't even have "Senioritis", it's just that I'm stressed out.
I feel like I'm screwed either way. My mom already paid close to a thousand bucks (she's almost at her credit card's limit she says) for all the housing and orientation stuff involved in the process. If I tell her that I don't want to go to college she will be furious that she spent all that money for nothing.
I'm sorry this turned out as more of a rant than a question on how I'm going to pay for college... and for my bad writing skills.