I was forced due to familial issues to switch schools 2 weeks before the end of last semester. I had been in my previous school district for 5 years and grew to love it. I had many friends there and I loved school- everything about it.
But due to this issue, I was forced to move to a bigger school in a completely different district. I've been here for about a month and I hate it so much.
This last semester, I was a very motivated student- my lowest grade was a 96 percent and I loved learning. School was my favorite part of the day. After the move, I have no motivation and I hate school. I count the hours until I get to leave. I do my schoolwork but it's just going through the motions.
I have a few friends here but it doesn't help much. I have absolutely no positive emotion towards school anymore.
I have forced myself to get ill to get out of school. Waking up everyday is a struggle and all morning and night I'm filled with dread for the next day.
I really want to go to a prestigious college in a few years and I'm scared that I'm going to screw it up because I'm so... empty. I cry a few times a week just thinking about the whole situation. I want to get good grades here but it's been tough.
I miss my old friends and my old school so much but my home situation here is so much better that I can't go back.
I've joined the musical and track but again, I don't feel excitement or happiness for these.
I don't know what's wrong with me. It's been a month and I should be settled and in a groove, but lately I just have no motivation. I hate this place.
How can I stop hating school? How can I get my motivation back? Thank you in advance. I need help.