i'm a senior, and i really feel like i didn't maximize my high school experience. i probably could have had a lot more friends, could have been a lot more places, and could have had a lot more fun, and i still probably would have done just as well in school.
i went to a HS party for the first time last night, and i had tons of fun, even though i was more on the sidelines of the party as opposed to really being in the mix. it made me think, "so this is what everyone else has been doing after football games for the past 4 years, and i've just been going straight home after to watch TV by myself???"
it almost kinda hurts to think about it. maybe i shouldn't have gone, i wouldn't have known what i've been missing... i don't want to spend the rest of my life feeling like this
i wanna know... should i really regret what i missed these past 4 years, or will college be even better? will i just forget about what happened in HS? or do these feelings of "regret" linger on after HS and maybe into adulthood??