Volunteer work might be a good start if you find looking for a job overwhelming.
Doesn't your screen name mean "unlucky person"? Why be a self-fulfilling prophecy? It's all in the attitude!
Having an internship is significant even if unpaid. I hope the experience you gain there will help you in the future.
Not sure if this is a serious post or not, but I'll bite and assume it is, since you say you are reaching out for help.