I've been stalking CC now for a while but another similar post compelled me to seek your sound advice. I hardly know where to begin, but here goes:
I am an international Asian. Only a handful of people from my country make it to an American university each year. Through extraordinary generosity from a really nice university (full ride), I will be joining many of you in the fall!
One of my dreams have miraculously come true. I am so grateful and overwhelmed.
But yet, so lost.
It seems absurd even to myself that a non-native speaker should feel so attracted to English lit. But I am. Throughout my schooling I have had to hide this from my parents, who both worked in banking. Every book I devour I tell them it's for school. It is my best subject and probably the reason why I won admission in the first place. Ironic, isn't it?
But I am also not blind to the implications of getting an English degree. Apart from the usual ones, one of those will be my dad becoming furious and cutting me off from what little money he will contribute. Another is that while I am away he will make my mother miserable and blame her for it. Meanwhile I am seriously doubting my abilities in this subject, especially in this uni. where undoubtedly I will be up against people who reads Virgil in Latin and Homer in Greek and quotes Plato spectacularly.
Please tell me what you think! Thanks so much in advance.