I am doing abysmally in college, failing to complete assignments and edging into my junior year with a 2.5.
I really dislike partying and whatnot so it's not an issue of socializing too much or drinking or drugs (in fact I am quite shy and tend to avoid that scene at all costs)...I just CAN'T seem to concentrate on my work. If I have a paper to do, I'll use the internet, I'll daydream, heck, if nothing else, I'll stare at the blank page for hours.
If you look at last Spring's grades, I had A-B-C-D-W (W=drop past deadline, equates to essentially a bit better than an F). The summer before that, I took 2 classes and received 1 A and 1 F. I just can't seem to achieve any kind of consistency.
This past summer I got 2 As and I was doing well in my classes for the first couple months this Fall, too. I thought things were finally looking up. But now I have dropped 1 class and failed to complete two papers, worth 30% of my grade together. I feel like the hope I had that I had changed things is smashed.
How can I be capable of such a range of performance? Every semester I think things will get better. I see a counselor, or I think of goals, or work on improving my study habits. But every semester things fall apart again and I can't seem to function on even the most basic level.
I have worked full time for the past two summers doing hard labor/repetitive tasks and I know that's not what I want with my life. I go into every semester fresh and try to see good things happening with my life, but I feel like I've tried everything. I want more but it always seems out of my grasp.