Not only am I an idiot, I was an idiot at the -+-worst possible time-+- for this sort of idiocy. I won't mention the details, because I did read the "Please read before posting" topic, but, long story short, I felt unchallenged at my school because I was "learning" stuff I've studies years previously. True to my evolutionary instinct to use as little energy as possible to accomplish a certain goal, I procrastinated like crazy. I failed to hand in some projects, and my Average (which before that year of horror, was near-perfect) suffered, big time.
Thanks to whichever higher deity you all may believe in, I snapped out of it pretty recently, which still leaves me some time before admissions. I don't have enough time to save my average, I'm barely going to get all a's this time around, and that's if I ace (as in 94+) my exams, but I do have enough time to ensure my SSAT's good, and possibly to get accepted into CTY. I'm looking at my glass half-full, which, on further inspection, looks more like a quarter-full. Darn it.
And get this: I want to go to a HADES school. Seriously. You read that right.
Harkness tables (drools) and all.
An added bonus? I think I have a chance.
To be overly optimistic, I'm charismatic (read: crazy), play the violin (terribly), and I do have a ridiculously high IQ, like the rest of you undoubtedly do. My EQ's a failure, I avoid thinking about my teacher recommendations because I'll pee my pants/kill myself, not necessarily in that order and I don't have a lot of time. I really don't.
On the plus side, I'm an interesting person to be around. My curiosities range from ESP Research, "Stargate", the bloop, PUAing (AM, the Blueprint, DavDeAng, Myery, ect), OEC's, ect. Or perhaps that just gives me an more irritating persona. Touche.
I wanted whatever scraps of advice you guys/gals/could give me. It'd be sincerely appreciated, but I think you could have guessed that by my tone of fevered desperation.
I REALLY, REALLY want to go into a HADES School. When I found about the Harkness tables, I honestly considered that, maybe I teleported back into time to make this for me.
I've never been academically challenged in my life, and I'm dying inside because of it.
So please my fellow humans, please save my life. Or at least help.
I apologize in advance if I sounded like an idiot. I have a cold with accompanying fever, and my allergies are acting up. I also ask that you please avoid the "Kill yourself" or the "Hahaha you suck" comments. I know already. I got past the self-loating and self-pity, and now I need to get up and act. I'm going for the gold, the tip of The Citadel, et cetera.