A Tale of Ambitions

CherryRose
Tue, 18 Oct 2011 12:26:37 +0000

My life’s goal has always been to go to Harvard. My family has traversed the world and overcome countless difficulties over the years for their children to be able to have the opportunities they were unable to have. I have been honed and trained and disciplined in all the countries we have lived in, to this end, and somewhere along the way I acquired the true love of learning. And yet, recently, at my frustrations with the educational bureaucracy of the American public school district I am currently in and my single-minded ambition to get out of it, I have lost that joy. I am stressed and unhappy, and I realized that everything I do pertains with getting to Harvard- and doing whatever I have to do to get there.

I am applying to Deerfield, Exeter, Andover, and Choate, and I will go if I get accepted with a full scholarship. Originally, I started applying to them because I wanted to be able to learn- to learn, without restrictions and limits, like I had always dreamed of. But recently, amidst all my planning to get in, I have been pushed to the breaking point and realized something.

What if it doesn’t ever stop? What if I do get in, after coercing myself to run for election, win championships, so it can look good on my Exeter app- but my ambition will always force me to keep on going? What will happen if I’m never content?.. What if it all just starts with Harvard?