Am I hopeless for college?

jameshomies
Mon, 07 Jan 2019 00:23:21 +0000

Sorry, I don’t know where else to put this… but I’m looking to apply to UC schools (because they are my dream schools) but I realize that most of their yearly tuition is over double what my family makes (30,000 a year for a family of four) I’m an out of state student living in Las Vegas meaning they give very little (if any) financial aid. I’ve never felt so disadvantaged for something out of my control until now…

I realize local colleges are an option to deal with the money aspect but… I’ve spent years working in high school to get into top schools. I’ve gotten a 4.8 GPA with a load of extracurriculars and APs, I can’t fathom settling for COMMUNITY COLLEGE? Nevada is not known for its amazing education system which is why it has been my dream to leave and go somewhere to challenge myself. I’ve also been applying to Ivies which give a generous financial aid but I refuse to attend a local college.

It’s also a way for me to escape other issues I have with where I live… toxic environment at home and because I despise Las Vegas and its culture. Also because I want a sense of self because my Asian family wants me to stay close to them forever… My brother settled for the University of Las Vegas AND was convinced to go from business into studying medicine all from their coercion. I see myself following his sad path… I want to be an engineer and go to a renowned engineering school but my parents are starting to pressure me into studying locally and to become a doctor…

If I leave, I will be all on my own emotionally and financially… I feel like there’s this huge dissonance between what I want and what is actually practical for me… I know many people give up on their dream schools, but it’s not just that for me. It’s a chance for me to explore the world and be dependent for once. It’s the only way I see myself being happy in the future: If I attend a top university… it just seems that everything is stacked against me.