AP dorama. (I need relief.)

Hurt
Sun, 13 Jul 2008 08:17:34 +0000

Anyway. I got my scores yesterday and overall, I’m decently satisfied. I got 5,5,5 and 4. My 4 was for European History which kind of ****ed me off. I actually tried the hardest for that AP exam and during the school year, it was like, THE easiest class for me. I had consistent A’s, A+'s in that class. I even walked out of that exam thinking, this is the only 5 I’m gonna get (having already taken the others).

But mostly, I think I’m happy I did not fail APES. I studied a total of 6 hours that class between now and January when my class ended. Somehow I not only passed - I pulled a 5. However, if I look at my efforts for my other AP exams, they miserably failed just like APES. For Bio, I did the majority of my studying the NIGHT before the test (all-nighter). For math, I did no preparation outside of class (though I suppose that was sufficient), and pretty much did not bother trying to study the topics I definitely needed help in.

There’s a consistency in my laziness, and I’m worried. Next year I’m taking 6 AP in addition to a crapload of EC’s. This year I was already feeling overwhelmed when AP Exams came because swim team went up to THE WEEK BEFORE AP Exams and I did not study at all. I always said I would; I ended up not doing anything (well, we still had a lot of homework…). That’s why most of my studying for every test besides European History ended up THE DAY BEFORE the exam. I think I’ve become lazy and possibly complacent with that. One of my closest friends thought that I simply studied, put forth the time and basically, deserved all my grades. She does not know that I spent roughly 20 hours on studying for bio (probably 17 the night before), only 6 hours for APES, and whatever else. I think her faith in my ability is not justified because I know myself better, or so I think. (maybe I’m not able to think about this objectively, that’s why I’m here asking.)

I really think that I just got by on luck this time. Or maybe I’m a decent test-taker. Either way, I think this will be bad and possibly killer to my grades next year.

I’m not really looking for suggestions… comments more like.

Damn that European test. , it’s now 4:46 and I can’t sleep well! (I think it’s because of this.)

whatever.