being a genius would be sad

ExcuseMyHyprbole
Mon, 26 Jan 2009 04:08:31 +0000

Sorry, I don’t know what happened. I press the space bar and suddenly it said I posted. So this is a continuation from my above post.

IT IS SO UNBELIEVABLY FRUSTRATING to be in a class and understand everything completely, and have to wait for everyone else to understand. The only thing that kept me in the least interested was math class. The problem is that after Calc BC, high school doesn’t have anymore to offer. It was hard to explain my A UU to my parents. (The A is the grade I got, and the two U’s were for my work habits and cooperation.)

It’s so frustrating to be smarter than your teachers. I literally had to teach my chemistry class because my teacher was a washed out opra singer that knew very little about the subject. My biology teacher had to ask me questions because he knew **** about anything. Here I am at 15 thinking *** use is high school when everyone around me is so inept. I was known as the “boy in calculus” or the “genius boy” when all I wanted to be known as was ME. I used to be extremely immature and hated when people asked what math class I was in, especially when they knew the answer already. Because of this I really had few friends (outcasts) and wasn’t very happy. So what did I do? I dumbed myself down for these incompetent people. And guess what? It worked. I mellowed out, went through puberty, gained a lot more friends, became socially adequate, and actually started having fun being in high school. My old friends hate me because of it, and at the end of the day I still feel that high school has failed me and wasted my time.

During summers at CTY when I was around nerds and took actual challenging classes I felt at home, I felt alive because I was learning. (I know it sounds corny, but it’s true.) But in my 11th and 12th grade classes, I just sleep through them.

Bottom line: All that being smart has done for me is make me wonder what the **** am I doing here. I’m stuck in high school because of the structure of our society, and I fear I’ll be stuck in college doing the exact same thing I am here- wasting my life.

I just don’t understand why these people around me think yelling “baaaaaaaah” from the back of the class is funny or how it makes them “popular”. I’m forced to be around these bigots, and I think their stupidity has definitely worn off on me.