"Bombed" AP Calc summer assignment?

preamble1776
Sun, 28 Jul 2013 01:51:07 +0000

I had an online AP Calc summer assignment that consisted of two problem sets - the first of which is due today, and the second is due on 8/30 which is our first day of school. I finished both, but on the second assignment, the program was really picky with decimal places (for instance, it would deduct points for the answer 8.06, but would accept 8.063) so I lost a lot of points on the second assignment, despite knowing how to do every single problem.

I ended up with a 100% on the first assignment and an 88% on the second assignment, and I went into this 48 hour period of terrifyingly deep depression. I have never gotten lower than a 100 on any summer assignment, as summer assignments are usually not designed to be challenging but rather just keep you exposed to material throughout the summer.

My Calc teacher told us not to be worried too much about our raw score precisely because of what he said is the “nit picky nature of the program” but still. I’ve lost sleep over it, I feel sick. I can’t eat. I’ve been laying on my couch all day. This is the first time in the past two days I’ve gotten onto the computer. I’ve had a terrible migraine that I took stress-migraine pills to alleviate.

Perhaps a little background as to why I find this so devastating - I am entering my senior year. I am currently enrolled in 3 APs and 1 CC class along with all Honors. I am competing with students enrolled in 5+ APs and CC classes and my class rank is at stake. I have already started AP Calc off on the wrong foot with this summer assignment, and if I don’t pull off remarkable grades 1st Quarter, my class rank will plummet from where it stands now, which is top 3% right before I send in college applications.

My issue is - I’ve lost all motivation to do anything. I don’t even want school to start, I don’t want to finish my AP Lit homework. I don’t want to do anything. This is two days after a conversation with my friend where I expressed incredible excitement/anticipation for school to start. My Father is worried that my behavior is going to trigger some type of mental illness. I just want to find the motivation to keep going, because as of right now, I feel like I totally (sorry for the language) f**ked up senior year, and it hasn’t even begun.